Yellow (Continued)...

Focus, BD 2005

Joy Division / Heart And Soul...

Instincts that can still betray us,
A journey that leads to the sun,
Soulless and bent on destruction,
A struggle between right and wrong.
You take my place in the showdown,
I'll observe witha pitiful eye,
I'll humbly ask for forgiveness,
A request well beyond you and I.
Heart and soul, one will burn.

An abyss that laughs at creation,
A circus complete with all fools,
Foundations that lasted the ages,
Then ripped apart at their roots.
Beyond all this good is the terror,
The grip of a mercenary hand,
When savagery turns all good reason,
There's no turning back, no last stand.
Heart and soul, one will burn.

Sums The Mood Really (Continued)...

Untitled

Review #2...

Some you get right, some you get wrong...

Counselling
Mirrors
What Is Happening
More Abstraction
The Path Of Crunch Decisions
Одно
The City
Internal Failings
One Way In, No Way Out
BD And Even More Philosophy (Continued)
Mysterious Skin (Continued)
The Path Of You

Yellow...

Bright and pure she is eye-catching, sharpening, warming, stimulating, joyful, intellectual and energentic. Only some of the things I see...

Seeing Things That Can't Be Described...

Cursed dreams, they tend to transpire so fast but the want remains. I know I saw you coming from a distance, I didn't want this scene to ever fade. I know you are just a thought away...

Spécial...

Untitled, BD 2005

The Path Of You...

What has been done, to you.
Has been done for a reason.
From where I'm stood, the view.
Reminds me of hope.
A promise is made, in good faith.
It means everything.
You mean more, to me each day.
And you could, mean everything.

Isolation...

But if you could just see the beauty,
These things I could never describe.
Pleasures and wayward distraction
Is this my wonderful prize?
Isolation...

Secret Machines / First Wave Intact

The walls don't move, don't change
Does it make you feel ashamed
No dreams, no curse
Could we make things even worse
Don't mean it's right
But it makes you see the light

Difference Through The Headphones...

Fugazi / Full Disclosure // The Argument
Ron Sexsmith / Gold In Them Hills (Feat. Chris Martin) // Cobblestone Runway
Durutti Column / Goodbye // Someone Elses Party
The Chameleons / The Healer // 1988
Magnet / Heaviest Heart // Where Happiness Lives [EP]
Joy Division / In A Lonely Place // Heart And Soul [Disc 3]
Gomez / In Our Gun // In Our Gun
The Cure / In Your House // Seventeen Seconds
Mew / Like Paper Cuts // Like Paper Cuts [Single]
Amorphous Androgynous / Liquid Insects // Tales Of Ephindrina
Editors / I Buried The Devil // Bullets [Single]
Stellastarr* / Love And Longing // Harmonies For The Haunted
The Rapture / Modern Romance // Out Of The Races And Onto The Tracks
Rilo Kiley / My Slumbering Heart // The Execution Of All Things
Biffy Clyro / Only One Word Comes To Mind // Infinity Land
Bloc Party / Pioneers (M83 Remix) // Silent Alarm [Remixed]
Essex Green / The Playground // Everything Is Green
Wire / Reuters // Pink Flag
Sigur Ros / Seaglopur // Takk...
James / She's A Star // Best Of:
Supernaturals / Smile // It Doesn't Matter Anymore
Cabaret Voltaire / Spies In The Wires // Rough Trade
Aberfeldy / Tom Weir // Love Is
Nine Black Alps / Unsatisfied // Everything Is
Cosmat Angels / You Move Me // Sessions
Lemon Jelly / '79 // '64 - '95
Penguin Cafe Orchestra / Bean Fields // Signs Of Life
We Are Scientists / The Bomb Inside The Bomb // Safety, Fun And Learning (In That Order)

Enough...

1000 To The Letter...

Mysterious Skin, BD 2005

Curse...

When does an obstacle become a boundary? Like rivers do boundaries need to be bridged or should they be left a defining gap?

Everything...

Holiday quiet on these streets,
Except for some stubborn leaves.
That didn't fall with the fall,
And now they clatter in vain.
Holiday sky, midnight clear,
wind is high, hard to steer.
Old muffler rumbles like an old fighter plane.
In search of some rest, in search of a break.
From a life of tests where something's always at stake,
Where something's always so far.
What about my broken car?
What about my life so far?
What about my dream?
What about...

Mysterious Skin (Continued)...

Benedette sian tutte le carte,
ov'io fama l'acquisto, e 'l pensier mio,
ch'è sol di lei, sí ch'altra non v'à parte.

On A Break...

Line Break, BD 2005

Mysterious Skin...

Trovommi Amor del tutto disarmato,
et aperta la via per gli occhi al core,
che di lagrime son fatti uscio et varco.

Tiscon...

There is always one that we ignore?

The Evening Light...

Not many more chances to catch this in 2005. Roof, BD 2005

For What We Know, We Owe...

'We shall not flag or fail. We shall go on to the end. We shall fight in France, we shall fight on the seas and oceans, we shall fight with growing confidence and growing strength in the air, we shall defend our island, whatever the cost may be. We shall fight on the beaches, we shall fight on the landing grounds, we shall fight in the fields and in the streets, we shall fight in the hills; we shall never surrender.'

Poppy Appeal 2005

'Never in the field of human conflict was so much owed by so many to so few...'

BD And Even More Philosophy (Continued)...

Serenity isn't freedom from the storm, but peace within the storm?

Damn This Foolish Heart...

I wanna see the flame, behind the silent rage. (Curiousity and education.)

Behind those lonely eyes, I never wanna see you cry. (Knowledge and application of knowledge.)

Foo Fighters...

Aberrant...

Enough said?

CL (Later)...

I wanted to raise above my class or caste. I wanted to raise above my culture and breeding. I wanted to transcend the limitation that the rest of my family and society were trapped by. I wanted to transcend my identification with my culture and its perceptions. I was a product of my family, breeding and culture so I wanted to transcend myself. I did not know this then but I can see how the seeds of change were with me a long time ago. - Jim Freedom

Who You Are...

I can't undo the day
It won't go under the rug
I pull out all the stops
And you pull the plug

These are sober days and I know it can't be
But I'll miss you the way you miss the sea

Don't look down
Keep staring like you've never seen the stars
If you need me to remind you who you are
Little blossom there's the shiniest soul
Just behind those eyes

"No longer my affair"
Well I can't go there just yet
So I've come to love and trust those friends
That are holding your net

Falling off used to mean
Maybe grazing a knee
And I'll miss you the way you miss the sea

Don't look down
Keep staring like you've never seen the stars
If you need me to remind you who you are
Little blossom there's the shiniest soul
Just behind these eyes

While I won't second guess
What you're thinking of me
I will miss you the way you miss the sea

Just Boy / Biffy Clyro...

Every once a while I see your face
I'm feeling half the man
Then you cup your hands
You pull me away
I'm under

But then everything beneath me fades
I'm feeling have the man
Then you shut your eyes
You pull me away
I'm under

All the lonely thoughts of mine
People look and tell me just boy
I dont beleive in anything
That's the message in your eyes
I dont beleive in anything
That's the message in your eyes

I have tried so hard to leave this place
I'm feeling half the man
I want to catch your breath here again
And kiss you

All the lonely thoughts of mine
People look and tel me just boy
I don't believe in anything
That's the message in your eyes
I don't beleive in anything
That's the message in your eyes

I am hoping through the dark clouds
Night shall break and bring a bright sky

Ponderings #1...

What would a chair look like if your knees bent the other way?

Even Water...

Ripple, Jiminez 2005








Even water can be percieved in different ways, but Jiminez and I both describe the very same thing. Don't we?

H2O, BD 2005

Knife...

A tool which can allow survival of the highest challenges, but can penetrate flesh to kill.

One of the things that depending on the hand it is found determines whether it is a tool or it is a weapon.

Songs For M...

Stellastarr* / Sweet Troubled Soul // Harmonies For The Haunted
BRMC / Love Burns // BRMC
Martin Grech / Only One Listening // Open Heart Zoo
Explosions In The Sky / The Moon Is Down // Those Who Tell The Truth Shall Die
Leaves / Angela Test // The Angel Test
M83 / I Guess I'm Floating // Before The Dawn Heals Us
Editors / Colour // Munich [EP]
Coldplay / See You Soon // Live 2003
Joy Division / Isolation // Still
Flaming Lips / Do You Realise? // Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots
Sigur Ros / Saeglopur // Takk...
Music / So Low // Freedom Fighters [Single]

I could go on, but these come to mind for one reason or another...

Meeting Of Minds...

It's a fantastic thing to find a mind that you want to find out more about. A mind that can humour and interest.



Meeting Minds, BD 2005

One Way In, No Way Out...

We all know the situation. We all know the fear will leave. We all know its going to be ok. With one way in and no way out. Sooner or later, we're going to have to face it. Cause we all know the future is the boss. We all see, we'll all soon be leaving as were told it'll be ok.

Rebelski...

Why hasnt anyone heard this fantastic man play his
fantastic music?

http://www.rebelski.com/

Stark...

Gotta find a way, to forget everything you said...

Little More Difference...

Alice in Ultraland / Amorphous Androgynous for those not afraid of banging on the door of the psychedelic.

Point Of Note...

I am palpable?

Ears...

People dont hear if they dont listen.

Photographs...

Look through us through the lens of a camera, does it remove all of our pain... - Editors / Camera

Some things that are said by some people, people who dont even realise cant be covered by any picture, any image or distortion of reality.

Nil (Zero)...

Is it really so bad to have nothing to lose?

Internal Failings...

When darkness falls, there will be war. Im bleeding,
bleeding from within. Bleeding from within. It just
happens to be the most precious night Ive ever lived
and there is still fighting. Im bleeding.

The City...

Middle Of The Night, PD / BD 2004

Layers...

We Are All Made Up Of Them (Some Less Than Others), BD 2005

Sunday Sounds...

Doves / Shadows Of Salford // Some Cities
Hope Of The States / Black Amnesiacs // Hope Of The States
Album Leaf / Lamplight // Lifetime Or More
Interpol / Hands Away // Turn Out The Bright Lights
Music / Human // Music
Joy Division / The Sound Of Music // Still
Clor / Goodby // Clor
Keith / Faces (Remix) // Keith
Warlocks / Come Save Us // Surgery
Coldplay / God Put A Smile Upon Your Face // A Rush Of Blood To The Head
Maximo Park / Kiss You Better // A Certain Trigger
Leaves / Angela Test // The Angela Test
Secret Machines / You Are Chains // Now Here Is Nowhere
Editors / I Buried The Devil // Bullets [Single]
Rebelski / Magic Calculator // They Played The School Piano
The Perishers / Still Here // Live
Bloc Party / So Here We Are // Silent Alarm
OMD / Souvenir // The Singles
Embrace / Out Of Nothing // Out Of Nothing
Sunshine Underground / Put You In Your Place // Demos
Pink Floyd / Sheep // Echoes
Sigur Ros / Glosoli // Takk...
Dido / My Life // No Angel
Talking Heads / Heaven // Talking Heads
Stockholm Monsters / Decalogue // Stockholm Monsters
M83 / Lower Your Eyelids To Die With The Stars // Before The Dawn Heals Us
Broken Social Scene / Pitter Patter Goes My Heart // You Forgot It In People
Tom Vek / Nothing But Green Lights // We Have Sound
Cast / Flying // The Collection

Or to that effect...

Political Music...

Is it out dated or not?

Between the billboard masturbation across highways of metallic isolation, there lies the deafining screaming of millions wiping out the diesesed cages of apathy that bleed on innocence.

Одно...

You blessed a part of me without knowing, without trying. I can see a time when I, won't be able to feel the pain at all no more and I will leave for other shores. You were the girl I could never hurt, now you have new eyes to spend tomorrow with and I have exhumed memories.

Long time stirring...

Mylo...

A talented Glaswegian? Well I don't know what to say...

'Mothafucka's gonna dropping the pressure...' - Mylo / Drop The Pressure

..seems appropriate.

The Path Of Crunch Decisions...

'I'd set my goals aside but will it get me through, I'd set my goals aside if I could be with with you...' - Engineers / Thrasher

Everyone at some point or action faces the crunch, the fork in the road, the coin toss. Whether it be for someone, for the career or whether to have chinese or indian. Some you get right, some you get wrong...

'I can't believe it's come to this, I'm banging on a sinking ship...' - Embrace / Out Of Nothing

...

Solitary...

Similar nights, eternal meaning put on a light.

Matrix Speak...

Quintessential is not a word that impresses me.

BD And Even More Philosophy...

If I said to you answer this question...is it a question?

Feeling To A Point...

The Music, Rob And Nick Carter 2003

Be Sensible...

'If you wanna die, go on! Commit suicide, you wanna live I know...' - Paddingtons / Panic Attack

Metaphorical Or Literal…

I'll subtract pain in ounzes, yeah I'll start painting houses if things come alive. I promise to commit no acts of violence be it physical or otherwise if things come alive.

What Is Happening (Continued)...

As much for M now, BD 2005

More Abstraction (Continued)...

Cryptic, BD 2005

Gift...

Flour, BD 2005

More Productive Time In Work (Continued)...

Can't complain about the view from the office.

More Abstraction...

Think about it..., BD 2005

May Be Unknown To You...

The researching never ends - more musical delights or frights.

Sunshine Underground - http://thesunshineunderground.com
Bam Bam Francs - http://bambamfrancs.co.uk
Duels - http://www.duelstheband.co.uk
Keith - http://keithonline.com
I Forward, Russia - http://forwardrussia.com

I don't know why you trust me to deliver difference.

What Is Happening...

I felt really in control of myself for a time, I knew what I was doing, saying, thinking, now I am straying from the guideline - after many influences mainly from a complete stranger memories have re-surfaced...

There is a pain in my heart,
Which was never there,
Now you have sank.
I can find the pain,
Filling my vessel.

Things were so,
When you were there.
I had nothing but everything.
Now you are gone,
I can only voyage in my loneliness.

I am scouting for something that cannot be found.
The something I found in you.

I'm not a master with words, I have never claimed to be. I might get back to this. The whole ocean seems so blank, maybe I'm trying too hard. I may draw a reflection.

Love...

'I'm just so bored of wasting my time, love and death are always on my mind...' - The Stills / Love And Death

Since I posted 'Death...', covered some thoughts on death; I've been told to take on the big half, Love.

'When my love stands next to your love, I can't compare love...' - Talking Heads / Love - Building On Fire

It's a strange topic to get into because it's something we all at some point want. So my thoughts might be complete garbage in comparison to the masses, my thoughts might be complete garbage in comparison to what I think next month or next time I meet someone who makes a change to my life - my thoughts may change the next time someone says they love me.

'I gave you all I had, I gave you good and bad and you just threw back...' - Brakes / Sometimes Always

Soul mates is not something I have tend to believe, I truly believe in chemistry and 'matches' and the whole concept of there being one person who would have a soul that would be intertwined with my own sounds amazing but it just doesn't seem right. I think that meeting someone who is so right would give this illusion, well it's not an illusion it's an impression - it isn't concrete but it's not false. My one is yet to be found? Maybe she slumbers in the last place I'd ever look? I don't know.

'Do you ever wonder where you'd be without her...' - Gomez / Sound Of Sounds

Criteria - all this talk of criteria - what it is precisely I am looking for now - I don't know why I'm asked. What do people want to hear? Do they really think I have this recipe or a checklist in my pocket for the 'perfect' partner. Having options doesn't really make life easy, it just questions well why would you pick one over the other. The idea of criteria is pointless - obviously I have preferences but I'm not as stupid to ignore someone because they aren't 'my type', they have red hair or they like Westlife or they have a medical problem. Everyone has something within that some people will look for and find. Returning to this idea of needing your eyes open to see. That maybe sounds optimistic in comparison to the rest of things on this blog but it's true, maybe the truest thing on this blog? People are for discovering.

'I can hear the silence of what we used to be...' - The Music / Human

Heart-breaker or heartbroken? Which is worst?! Again I'm really not sure why these type of questions are prompted to me - possibly a dig? I know I have been in both parts. I'm of the mind being the breaker is worse, since I know how being broken is. It's horrible to know that something you've cherished is not going to plan or there has been a 'hiccup' that puts the whole element in doubt - seeing the eyes well up, sensing the bad news. Hearing the game over. But delivering the above and feeling the guilt that you know what you are making that person feel like and being torn between the desire to do justice by the relationship in its last leg. Knowing what is the right thing is one part of the picture, actually doing the right thing is completly different.

'Yet there is still this appeal we've kept through our lives...' - Joy Division / Love Will Tear Us Apart

Being in love makes things what they are when it's good and it's the thing which can break you in a glance.

I do stress this is just some ideas, a stop gap if you like - I will redraft with my views a little more defined, this is really pencilled - I'm not firm in everything I've said; there does need to be a little pondering, but it's took me three days and much effort to get this far!

Mirrors...

My true reflection, will I ever see it?

'See my true reflection, put on my open necked shirt, I can see life getting harder...' - Joy Division / Sound Of Music

Archive...

I don't even agree with some of the things in the archive.

Flowers...

What is the big deal about flowers?

Today I went to a florist, looked around at the arrangements, spoke to the woman behind the counter about having an arrangement that was on display with a different selection of flowers - rather than the bright yellows and reds I wanted pastel pinks and whites, she quizzed me why and I told her because it suited the person I was buying for more. Whilst I was there the woman asked if it was for a special occasion - I replied it wasn't - she looked twice at me and asked what it was for. I was a little surprised she asked but I said a friend who was going through a tough time. She smiled at me and took my money.

Did I miss something?

Mr. Darcy...

Being strong minded and logical doesn't take away having a heart, men need to be 'man' enough and be visible, be vocal, try to explain, understand burying everything doesn't help. Women need to be more aware when it comes to emotions, men struggle with the obvious, their display of feelings may be tame - it doesn't make them any less valid.

Changes...

In what way have I changed over the past year?

Money Well Spent...

Cloud No.10, Susan Atkinson 2004

Reflection...

A Strangely Isolated Place, after having a new copy laboriously imported; I’ve sat in relative darkness listening and over listening.